So before I begin my sad sad sad story... again... I want to thank all of my friends, my family and all of the people that have been supportive through this hard time. Your kind words and gestures have really helped to reassure me that all of this is just a bump in the road that we will soon be able to cross. It really is fantastic, all of the love and support you have all provided and for that I thank all of you. One friend, in particular, has offered to go above and beyond, and it's absolutely amazing to me how far real love extends. Thank you Katie, you really have been a help psychologically and personally!
Today was a really hard one. Just when we thought things were back on track, our Landlord came to the door and threatened us with a 3 day eviction notice. It blew me away, and John too. Luckily for me I had work to go to and hide from it for a while, but he didn't. He had the pleasure of spending his day stewing on what the next course of action should be. Let's be honest, we only had the option to pay what we can for rent, but a person always wants to think of the ways to make the aggressor feel bad. John had plenty of ways, but I think we would need a whole big bunch of law books and Will Hunting to make our case. We made a deal, we followed through, and as of now, we are safe in our home for at least another month. John feels like he should leave and mine out of state again, he feels like his family isn't ok. I feel like maybe I should find a different job... again, just so we can make ends meet. The power, the water, the phone, the cable, all due at the same time, and I just started my job so no money coming in for a couple weeks. I feel like a total loser, going back to work to help and we are so far behind it's sad. However we need to take into account the fact that we are all at home, we have these beautiful boys that we love more than our own lives. I have my sister here, who I would have never believed could be the rock that she is for me, and I couldn't be more greatful for her. So what if we are behind, I am ok with going to the food bank one more time if we have to, so what if they threaten us with whatever, we will find a way to fight and win. I want you all to know that I know at least a couple of my readers have been in this position, it just so happens it's our turn, shitty though it may be, and in the future if any of you need help of any kind, I will find a way. That's my new goal. Even in our time of not as good as we would like it, it's time to help others too. I'm not really a holiday spirit kind of person, but we all need to give a little, and don't expect anything back, just remember that there was a point in your life that things weren't ok, and now is the time to help. I hope that one day the kindness I have been shown will be extended to someone else in the same position, who truly deserves the help.
I'm in your shoes here. Its so frustrating and emotionally draining. Somedays I want to scream and fight the world and somedays I want to just curl up and give up.
ReplyDeleteOn the other hand I try to keep it in my head that we have it pretty damn good. We are healthy and able bodied and our kids are thriving. We are surrounded by family and friends. There are those out there sick or alone that would give anything to have what we have.
My kids say "its the not so good stuff that makes the good stuff so much gooder." Lol
Keep your head up. We are the lucky ones that through our struggles are going to make it and be better, kinder, happier, more content people for it.